Faith

Orbital – Halcyon On and On


Welcome the day when you discover and accept what you want most from life, more than anything else, and then you decide to go out and be that thing in the world for others.

For me the central question of Faith
Is the one we’ve been asking all along
From the beginning
The one we will continue to ask
Until the end;
Am I alone?
As newborns
It is the first existential fear we experience
When we realize that we are somehow separate
At death it is the lingering doubt
Lurking behind our absolutes
A thousand drops of water eroding
The steadfastness of our convictions
Until one day the blink of fear
Catches us off guard
If you ask me
If you are alone
I will say to you,
No,
You are not alone.
I will speak with a conviction
Beyond belief
One born better from experience.
I will say to You
I see You
I feel You
I experience You
Across all time
Across all space
And I am not the only one
Do you feel it
Moving through us?
Telling us somehow
That we are not alone in this
Forget for a moment
What you have been told
Or what you have decided to believe
And ask instead, what do I feel?
Can you feel this with me now
This ebb and flow between us
This breath that speaks the holy Word of Creation
Come dance in this sacred circle of Existence with me
Come take it all in
Without resistance anymore
Against the depth of suffering and joy
That await you
Each functioning as they must
In their respective Divine function.
When you find yourself
A battered and broken wretch
Observe the beauty in a leaf
Hold it’s fragile and brief existence in your hand
Not so very different from your own
Be with its sheer beauty in transit for a moment
Touch it like an artist
Lovingly touches the canvas
See how it cares little
of its entrance and exit in the world
See how it cares
Only for the part it was meant to play with you
The way it was meant to play with you
See how the universe is playing with you
Here and now
You are being invited into this Divine Play
Touch the Divine Part you were meant to play
Can your heart bear it
How strongly the universe beats in you?
So too are we here for this purpose,
So too am I here for you and your purpose,
For our divine play together
Our tumbling around in this You and I
I can only unfold my self to your self
Awkward as a bad poem…
And be vulnerable
And stand before you
In the naked aloneness of this
So that you might be the Sacred Play at work
In my life
With such gentle and savage beauty
In your heart born of the wild
Born from the burning hearth of the cosmos
The warmth of your fire telling me
That we are none of us alone in this
After all.
Isn’t this the true answer
To the question of Faith?
While our separateness is Sacred
So too is our longing for Union
With each other and Divinity
How to balance the yin and yang of this dance
This careening swing of our trajectories
Falling so easily into the gravity of each other
Searching for equilibrium
And an orbit that results
Neither in colliding annihilation
Nor broken bonds flinging us out
Back into the expanse alone
With even greater velocity than before
How to balance this
Is the question
As your fingertips
Touch the back of my arm
And unfold the universe
Out onto the table
It’s the Starry Night
Van Gogh lining of your coat
Simultaneously cool and warm
Over the back of my hands
As I hold you
The fire of creation
On a cold winter’s night
When you are happy
To just be there with me
In my arms
I could live in that moment
For the rest of eternity
With you
Living in that moment
Together
In this moment
In this Divine Play
For as long as you welcome
My Love for you.
What do you long for?
I surrender myself to that
I surrender myself to you
Share with me your longing
And I will long with You
Share with me your hunger
And I will hunger with you
Explore with me
And I will Explore with you
Be with me
And I will be with You
I will BE with You
and there we will find
the inner heart of Faith
And Fidelity
In our Love
for Each Other
and the Divinity of Life
At it’s most Sacred
I see in You

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Holding Lightly

HÆLOS – Full Performance (Live on KEXP)

Find the Word of Divinity
That lies at the heart
Of the sacred text of your faith

Whatever it may be
Find it in the stories of those who have come before
And have called us to Love
But do not rest passively in the Word
For their message was a call to action
And a call for surrender
Of all that you are
Of all that you thought
You once wanted for yourself.

Will you lose yourself in their call?
Will you surrender to their Love?

To worship them is not enough
They are waiting for you to step forward and ask
“How too may I serve those who suffer?”
“How may I live by your example?”
It is then that you stop clinging to the teachings
Like you’re on a raft in the raging sea
Awaiting rescue
It is there that you learn to weather the storm
As a welcomed and necessary journey
Where you unfurl the sail of your soul
And catch the wind of the Sacred Breath
Letting it move you according to the charted route
Of your true soul
That you have been afraid to follow

It is then that you may truly immerse yourself
With a light and joyful touch
In the teachings of your faith

Where you find the true measure of your soul
Woven in bliss
In the vast wisdom of the ages.
Search not for an escape
Nor a destination in and of itself
In the reading

But find instead the Liberation
Of an opening gateway
Through which you pass
A point of origin and rebirth
Propelling you back out into the world
Like a gamma ray burst escaping
The crushing gravity of a black hole
Matter born again to energy
At the speed of light

Piercing the heart of your suffering here
That somehow whispers now also
The song of joyful purpose
When it is the opening of your compassion
For the suffering of others.
You learn and carry such things
From reading the Sacred Word
Not to save yourself from the world
But to offer and give yourself unto the world
To give the powerful gift you have received
This vision of sacred purpose and beauty
In all things
Where everything that has ever been
Is the voice of Divinity at play
Traveling on an echo
Self reflecting
This Divine Emanation
This Creation
This path that returns us
To our own joyful annihilation in God;
Let the plaintive cry of
“Cupio dissolvi, et esse cum Christo”
“I desire to be dissolved and to be with Christ”
Be not a plea for death
But rather a call to live
Beyond oneself
In communion with his example.
Live in the consumed state
Of the ecstatic experience he offers us
Share this experience with all who long for it
By speaking the Divine Word
Found in the heart of the sacred text of your faith.
When you face even those who hate you
Even those who would demean and destroy you
Lost in the chaos of their own suffering
Speak to them the Word
With actions that say to them
“You are loved by God,
And I will do you no harm.”
For that is where the lost are found
Unto themselves and unto God
And saved.


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Leaves

Young Adults – Radioactive (Live At GuitarBank Moscow)

We have each of us known the sorrow
Of experiencing a sense beauty in the world
That is particular and tragically unique
To ourselves.
What could we ever say about such things
When it hurts too much to speak?
It is that moment when we are stirred by a sad song
Or a walk alone in the woods

In a way that we know only we could feel.
It is a place where we long endlessly
Only to share such an impossibility
This longing of an ecstasy
Known only in the heart of Divinity
Wherein we are all of us one in such things.
When it opens in me
And obliterates me
When I surrender myself to it
I feel the beauty of your own singularity
Moving within you, unique to you,
Alone in the world, within me.

But how do I tell you
That you are not alone in this?
Forget yourself
And I will forget myself
So that we may be,
There but for a moment

Two flames quenched
In the ocean of God
And surrender

Our being into the Divine
Passing through the everything of this
And for each our singular beauty in this life
Find the union
Of leaves tumbling down through the wind
Dropped from the same Tree of Life
Returning to the same Sacred ground.